Friday, May 18, 2007

shaking my fist.

i am slightly obsessed with nickel creek at the moment. i have always loved them...but a return to their soulful music is providing great joy and profound thought. the following is my current favorite selection.

where am i today? i wish that i knew
'cause looking around there's no sign of you
i don't remember one jump or one leap
just quiet steps away from your lead

i'm holding my heart out but clutching it too
feeling this short of a love that we once knew
i'm calling this home when it's not even close
playing the role with nerves left exposed

standing on a darkened stage, stumbling through the lines
others have excuses, but i have my reasons why

we get distracted by dreams of our own
but nobody's happy while feeling alone
and knowing how hard it hurts when we fall
we lean another ladder against the wrong wall

and climb high to the highest rung, to shake fists at the sky
while others have excuses, i have my reasons why...

- "reasons why"

Thursday, May 17, 2007

welcome mat.

in line with the new pact i have created with myself to be incredibly optimistic and cheerful ("the mind is a powerful thing" - mama), i have decided to outline a few thoughts i have had over the past few weeks...pleasant meanderings of the mind in hopes of inspiring more. here goes.

i could sit outside on the back deck of my parents' house in a warm evening breeze for hours and watch my dog lay in the grass, sniffing curiously. a simple moment with profound comfort.

digging in the dirt has got to be one of God's best ideas. fresh soil smells heavenly.

james taylor has quickly become a staple in my musical feast (and not because he graduated from carolina). 'fire and rain' speaks all kinds of wisdom.

painting with my pallete knife releases some kind of pent-up energy like nothing else can, especially when dipped in deep reds.

i am grateful for the large thyme and oregano bushes left in my backyard by the previous tenant. it makes the morning breeze that much more amazing.

getting lost in a world of fiction on my new red couch with a cup of peppermint tea makes for a good time.

the older i get, the more i love and appreciate my family...quirks and all.

Tuesday, May 1, 2007

wishin' and hopin' and thinkin' and prayin'...

it's may 1st.

tomorrow, i move to richmond. my time in chapel hill is done. everyone keeps asking me how i feel about this move...if i am ready to leave...am i excited about being back in my home state.

i don't really know how to answer that query.

i think i am too overwhelmed about all of the change that is happening all at once. it's not necessarily a negative emotion...just overwhelming.

it may be a few days before i am able to wax nostalgic about my time in chapel hill.

what i do know now?

i have been blessed beyond words by many, many souls down here in the south...and i am ever-grateful for this refiner's fire otherwise known as the past 12 months of my life.

the story is not over, my friends...in fact, i am hopeful for quite a few more beginnings...